Grump grump grump

I am feeling a little narky today.

I had trouble getting to sleep last night.

I woke up early this morning.

I spoke to my sister and she is planning to go away for a week on holidays at around the same time that I am coming home (and I can't tell her I will be there around then as I want to surprise her... looks like its me who got the surprise!)

It's my birthday soon and it's bad enough that this will be the second year that I haven't been able to celebrate it with my dad (I was born on his birthday so we have always celebrated it together) but all my friends are in London so I wont get to see them either andI am going to have to work on it (I have never worked on my birthday before, in fact, the 2 times I couldn't actually get the day off, I informed my boss that I would come in that day, but there was no way in hell they were getting any work out of me - I was there for cake and presents and that was it. Luckily, they accepted that). No presents on the day either - my family are giving me money or something. Seriously not happy.

I threw out the lemon fairy cakes that were in the fridge (*sob*) because I simply have no self control and if they are there, I will eat them. (This one really hurt, I must admit)

AND

I measured my hips today and no - you are never finding out what they measured (this is why I threw out the fairy cakes... nuff said).


On the plus side -

The old couple are both doing well today and she hasn't obsessed about the cat once (some kind of record for sure).

I got new shampoo and conditioner today (so I get to open the bottles tonight - this is the level of excitement my life has been reduced to by doing this job - and yes, I am fully aware of how sad that is) but do you KNOW how hard it is to find Sebastian products in this town?????

I had a lovely text conversation with a friend.

The sun is shining.

If I was not an honest person...

I begin to understand why you so frequently hear of carers getting charged with stealing from old people – it would be so fucking easy.

In the last week she has –

Tried to reimburse me 4 times for one lot of grocery shopping

Tried to reimburse me twice for the other lot of grocery shopping

Tried to reimburse me twice for the petrol I put in the car

Handed me £1000 in cash when we were in the bank and then forgot that she had even withdrawn it and was surprised when I gave it back to her when we got home (I had to explain that she had taken it out at the bank and yes it was her money - care to guess how long that conversation took??)

Tried to pay me by chq 3 times for my last weeks wages – as in, she drew up one chq and gave it to me, then 20 mins later handed me another one, which I gave back to her and we then ripped it up … and then about 3 hours later she tried to give me another one. *sigh*


In addition to that, she was terribly confused by a call from the bank so i called them back and after they had ID’d her, I spent some time talking to them and sorting everything out there – I know her private banker better then she does by now (including the fact that its his daughters 3rd birthday today - happy birthday Kate, wherever you are). Luckily for her, I used to work in a bank because she had serious trouble understanding what was going on when I explained it to her later – in the end I got a pen and paper and drew her pictures.

Sad, but true.


She’s all worried now about how she’ll cope when I am gone. If there is anything more pitiful then an old lady clutching your hand and begging you to stay longer and asking if you really have to go home so soon, I don’t know what it is but if I hadn’t already made a promise, I don’t think I would have been able to stand firm about leaving this job when I said I would.


And then there are the times she does my fucking head in.

But lets not go there.

I have been getting headaches again lately – 3 weeks to go… just 3 more weeks….

The biggest problem I have is with boredom – I am reading 2 – 3 books a day but am still very bored so I am eating – my current craze is lemon anything – lemon drizzle cake, lemon meringue pie, lemon fairy cakes… bring that shit on! The reason it’s a problem is that my ass just doesn’t need it! Sooooo not good.


Apart from that though, life is wonderful….

In fact, I’m just a little bundle of backflips.

Hmm....

It's all going fairly well...

I have had a couple of vents to friends etc, but for the most part....

Let me put it this way - they have asked me to stay a bit longer and I have agreed to do so, thats a pretty good indication of how its going.

They are actually very cute - adorable, even.

They have been married for 63 years and are still so in love. He can hardly walk but likes to take her a cup of tea in the mornings and they sit on the couch all day holding hands.. I asked them how they had met and they were telling me all about it - I have never seen two people so much in love after even half that time. Its simply beautiful.

She however, has depression and is a worrier, this does my head in, but for the most part, i am managing just fine with a little help from my friends. :-)

Internet access is rather difficult here so I wont be on much, but I wanted to say 'Hi!'



In other news, if you ever want to see just how many totally fucking stupid people there are in the world who should never be allowed to drive, go sit in a grocery store carpark sometime... 5 minutes should do it... stay there any longer then that and you will never go near a road again for fear of being killed by some of the wankers out there.

Learn the dimensions of your fucking car! Learn how it steers! Who gives these people a license??????

FFS.


Anyway, in closing, I am in a very happy place right now. The suns not shining and the birds aren't singing, but they might as bloody well be. If I knew how to tap dance, I would.

x

21 Days

Thats all.

Just 21 days, starting from tomorrow.

If I can just control myself for 21 days.

Hopefully they will be nice.

If not, they are paying me well.

I think, to be on the safe side, I shall pick up some Rescue Remedy on the way there tomorrow.

I love that stuff.

21 fucking days....

I'm screwed.

ARGH!!!!!!

Dear god!!!

How did someone end up on my blog by searching for 'brother smooching sister' ????????

That is just all kinds of wrong.

Freaks.

Everyone has a price.

Since I got back to London, the care agency has called me a couple of times about jobs (“What about this one?? No?? Ok, well we have one here too, did you want to think about that one??”)

Each time I have said no, for several reasons –
a) They were very unsupportive with the last one
b) I don’t ever want to put myself in that position again
c) I hated being away from my friends – I’m a very social person and that kind of did my head in a little.

Today, I transferred a goodly sum of money home to make my credit card payment and also to pay a couple of bills that mum informed me had come through.

That left my bank account looking rather sad… and I don’t like sad bank accounts….

Before too long, I am going to start eating into my safety net (yes, I know that’s what it is there for, I don’t care, when I have to touch that, I get very antsy).

Right as I was sitting there thinking that, they called me again and offered me another job.

3 weeks, in Surrey (where the fuck is Surrey?), 7 days a week but the pay is good… very good, actually…

In spite of the fact that every particle of my being was screaming ‘NOOOOOOOO!’ in sheer horror, I said yes.

Looks like I just found my price.

Does that make me a whore??

Worse, I suspect, because I feel like I am selling my soul.

I wonder if its too late to call them and say I’ve changed my mind?




In other news, last night, while chatting.. well, actually, ihad stopped chatting for a moment and was.. umm.. busy, I accidently knocked my laptop off the bed onto the floor... oops... now the keyboard part doesn't work - i can still log in and everything, but can't type.... This may be a problem...

Because you know so much, part 2

So, they went to dinner to talk about the relationship and where they were going (she's been freaking out a bit - commitment phobe).

This morning, I woke up to this -


From: CM
To: Giggles

GW,

Dinner with X went well. Things will step forward at an easy pace. I am much relieved. You’re the best.


From: Giggles
To: CM

Hey sweetie, good to hear that all went well – very exciting stuff. Always happy to help, although I am sure you would have done just fine on your own.

* hugs *


From: CM
To: Giggles

All kings need good council. You will always be in that realm. The realm of the king. Hahahaha


From: Giggles
To: CM

Haha - arrogant git.


From: CM
To: Giggles

Just remember who loves you baby…


From: Giggles
To: CM

Ewww! I just know the tone you would have said that in!!!!! Along with the wink and snapping of fingers!!!

Such a pimp...



I think you'd have to know him to really get it.

Which makes this whole post rather pointless really.... as opposed to say, one of my normal posts...